Valentine's day

Im gonna turn 22 sometime soon and im still celebrating v dae singly! But well no regrets.. thx to all the frens who had spend wonderful time wid me for V dae every year! N of course its a blessing to be single all along. Im truly hapi abt it and proud of myself! N my sisters surely get me smthg every Vday and make me feel so special! But to me V dae its not just a mere xchange of gifts but more to it.. There's a real love in the air when everyone seems to be soley sharing love. Atleast there's one day in this world where i see ppl respecting love... Neways i saw kana's blog n she's wrote abt how the Vdays had been for her for the past many yrs.. N i got reminded of my Vdays frm my sec sch days too. In sec 2 i guess we started xchange of gifts.. me, trish, jo n dana.. then in sec 3, sangaran ask me to be his valentine.. but tat was all for fun.. in our hearts we knew it was true frenship.. in fact tat was to make thrish jealous.. and to create some sparks bet the missai nanbhan and sexay trish.. but nothing worked! Haha, to think abt it now, everything seems so funny. But ya.. tat was a memorable Vday cos first time i was a valentine to someone and i got a box of chocolates. Yeah.. then in JI.. wid kana and sangi.. and the love tat started bet us goes strong till tdy and im glad tat ive been holding on to a frenship tat started at first 3mths. Love u babes. Hmm then in jc.. frens jus wished each other, give chocs n say i love u and you love me very loudly! hehe. N then even tho jo, tris and dana were in diff schs i met them to give gifts for Vday wen i was in jc.. and i rem once i met them at LJ, n it was wen we were 18 if im not wrong.. when i was 20.. someone who i was dating asked me to be his valentine.. n we went out.. hmm.. after tat.. last yr again wid all my makkals at the khatib mac.. and this yr at woodlands mrt station... the places doesnt sound fantastic.. its always some runned down place or some street corner where we catch up.. but love still do spark in the air.. like we haf fun jus by mocking at each other! Wad r frens for? haha. Anyways happy valentine's to all! Love u guys..

Regrets and anger about my attitude!

I feel so sucky... and i hate this feeling.. it comes back to me now and then and makes me feel like a loser! Now why this sucky feeling? The answer is ive so many regrets about wad has happened in the past 5yrs of my life! Especially last year... I jus hate myself for doing the wrong things in life. Sometimes, iam just such a big time slacker that the absence of action has also caused some effect in my life, which i really cant face now! Im too tired of pondering now and then wad are the mistakes ive done in my life. I keep thinking about it so much so that i think im going mad at times. It prevents me from concentrating on my other important chores! After so much of pondering for past few weeks and all, i realised that i have some very bad qualities in me. Which i need to forcefully throw away. These qualities in me have allowed me to make big blunders too!

Bad qualities/characteristics

1) Anger ( very quick-temepered, irrational thinking at the point of anger)
2) Procastination
3) Irresponsible (Iam not responsible of my actions, tend to blame others if things go wrong in my life)
4) Lack commitment to the tasks assigned to me/duties in my life
5) Failure to plan any task leading to bad time management
6) Lack focus. (Tend to easily slip out of a task, as in not do a proper work after some time)
7) Lack of Punctuality
8) Lack discipline and tend to make all the mistakes stated above despite knowing them at times and tend to repeat them bcos i lack so much of discipline!

I need a big time transformation! Just not by saying so.. by doing so!

I can achieve anything my mind sets to it... so i better go for it.. start changing my mentality!